I am a massive believer in living with no regrets. This does not mean that I have not done stupid things in my time and thought 'Gee, wish I hadn't done that'. What I mean by living with no regrets is taking that embarrassing experience, accepting it for what it was and moving forward knowing that it has changed you and bettered you in some way. My question is though, if you keep making the same mistake over and over again, is it the universe trying to tell you that you haven't got the message yet? You haven't learnt your lesson? Or is it weakness?
I went out for a girlfriends birthday last night, she is such a bloss, and I had decided from the get go that I wouldn't really drink. I am not a good drunk, I don't like the person I become, I don't like feeling drunk. I Know. What the heck, right. I mean growing up in Australia it is so drilled in that drinking is a part of being Australian.(by society, not my family) It is a horrible label to be landed with and I quite frankly find it very hard to turn away from. But I genuinely don't like it. So there my dilemma stood. Get to the party, vodka shot in hand and then its like the same damn story unfolds. And it is just the same story repeated. Mostly cloudy with a chance of meatballs and bad judgement calls. Geez there was no real pressure to even do it. Its almost like second nature. And I know what the right answer is, just don't do it. But it keeps happening. It has landed me in this spot, on my bean bag, incense burning, music loud, thinking my thoughts out trying to work out if there is a lesson for me to learn. I am going through a massive change as an individual, changing my whole lifestyle, I have even said that I feel like a completely different person. So is there a lesson? Or is it just time for me to declare it that drinking is not for me. Being an ass is not my thing. Having a screaming match in the middle of the CBD is just not who I want to be. I am embarrassed by my actions and I am the only one having to deal with the emotional and physical repercussions of my decisions. Gee I wish I could have learnt these lessons in my teens.
So there I said it. I Don't Like Drinking. And if you don't like drinking, that's okay. Society should be teaching our teens that substance abuse leads to bad decisions and some of those bad decisions stay with you for life. And cool people should teach them that, because lets face it, they don't think there parents are cool!
So, in conclusion... is there a lesson? Is that my lesson? When do you know its time to stop learning the lesson and start living them?
I made these for my friend Ben for his Birthday. Such a lovely, wonderful human being, blessed to have that guy in my life! Maple Pecan Pancake Cupcakes.
Also made Vegan Nachos for Dinner. Just ask me for the vegan cheese recipe, it was Amazing!